Vulnerability.

"Our lives are a mixture of circumstances- ones that lead us to rest and revel in the presence of God, and ones that drive us to our knees and question how such things could happen." -Angie Smith

Friends, life's been messy. I've been knocked to my knees and forced to acknowledge the fact that I'm NOTHING without Jesus.

And that's hard. We like to think we can do anything and everything. I call that the Superwoman (or man) mentality.  The reality is that we can't do anything and everything. No siree bob. We, as humans, are not capable of doing anything and everything we want to do.

I would love to tell you that I have it together all the time. HA. What a lie that would be. The truth is, I'm a mess and a half. This week has been especially hard. I barely have one foot in front of the other. I've lived in sweat pants and had a swollen face most of the week. I hadn't put makeup on or actually done my hair until today.

I have an infamous family, so the majority of people in my city know me; meaning I can't go anywhere without people noting my appearance. For once, I had nothing left. I had no energy to make small talk, or deal with false pretenses.

I was forced to be vulnerable with people.

Vulnerability is scary. If you're like me, you'd rather go back to bed than deal with vulnerability. I'm not saying I don't do vulnerable- I'm typically only vulnerable with a select few. Vulnerable to the world?? Yikes. So for me to be truthful and tell people that I wasn't doing well was huge. Truthfully, I desperately needed prayer, and I wasn't afraid to ask for it.

I was falling apart, barely held up by my two best friends, and of course, Jesus. I was flipping through the blogs I read regularly when I ran across Alyssa Bethke's post. Here's the expert that I needed so desperately:

"“The Lord upholds all who are falling and raises up all who are bowed down.” {Ps. 145:14}

“The Lord upholds those who are falling…” Those who are falling. Falling. Tumbling down. Not perfect. Don’t have it all together. Messy.

The Lord upholds them. He upholds the messy ones. He holds on to those of us who are down. Who are in despair. Who are struggling. He is mighty. He is powerful. He is the Savior. Not us. He is the Rescuer. Not us. He is the one who holds on."

Honestly, reading that felt like a desert recieving water.

The Lord upholds all who are falling. He HOLDS ON. He does not let go.

How comforting is that? His grip on us does not slip. He holds us tight. He holds us close. We are not forsaken. We are not held captive. We are not left alone to deal with mess.

There is such truth to be found in Christ. Be comforted today, dears.

~Beth